My world has been topsy turvy for the last couple of months, but the past 10 days have been the most difficult.
I had a wonderful time in Hawaii even though I didn't get to see much of it. We went to class early in the morning, and didn't get out until the sun was down. So...the beach in the moonlight is gorgeous!!!!!
I did a tiny bit of shopping...it cost so much to attend this residency. I was able to get a hat and a shotglass for Eve. My friends got a t-shirt, a hat, a box of chocolate covered macadamia nuts and a coffee cup. I got a t-shirt and a coffee cup...and of course, as is mine and Eve's tradition...a refrigerator magnet. Sum total of souvenirs...150.00 (can you believe those few things cost that much?!!!!).
The horrible thing that happened is that the day before I left for Hawaii, Mister Frodo seemed to be in distress. He often has trouble breathing so we chalked it up to a change in climate and the stress of seeing my suitcases. Whenever I am gone, he will not eat, mopes around, and acts like the world is going to end. This coincidence masked the fact that Mister was dying. I would call Eve every day and ask how he was doing, but she felt he was okay and having no more difficulty than usual. When I returned from Hawaii, I realized my little guy was close to death - severely dehydrated and not getting enough oxygen. I spent most of the day on the phone with the vet since our finances are so bad, I couldn't afford to just run in there all willy nilly with no way to pay. (It's reprehensible that there's no emergency care for pets like there is for humans...if you don't have money...the vet won't see you). Anyway...we're fortunate to have a wonderful vet who met us at his office on Monday night and took Frodo in, stayed with him all night, and helped him make the transition over the rainbow bridge in our place. Dr. Bryant cried with us the next morning and allowed us to pay in payments. The bill was 571.60.
I miss my little dog so much that it hurts as though I have lost a human. I never thought I would be that affected; however, I break down during the day periodically. It's been a week since Frodo left my side, and I feel like this pain will never subside. Even though I know it will....I just cannot bear it.
If you can't tell...I am in a bit of a funk. Last night Eve decided that she would like to go Christmas shopping. She was excited and happy and then we entered the store. Eve is the worst shopper EVER....it's frustrating and difficult to go with her. She says things like I know what to get our family members and that I understand them and their tastes. Then when I pick something I know they will really enjoy...she refuses to agree, doesn't want to get "THAT", and makes me miserable in the process. Eve is happy to go to Walmart and one-stop Shop....I hate that!!!!! In the mood I am in...if I get ONE more stock gift or sub quality gift from that place...I WILL SCREAM and throw a tantrum!!!!! It just takes planning and shopping to find the perfect gift for someone...whether you have 10 dollars or 10 thousand dollars doesn't limit the possibilities of finding that one special thing someone will treasure forever. You just have to think about the person...who they are...what's important to them...how they dress, what kind of car they have...where they work...all those things speak to what a person stands for...once you get that...getting a gift isn't all that difficult. For Eve...I would suggest she stick with gift cards and let everyone choose their own present!
Okay, gonna go...shouldn't be writing in this weird mood.
