Sometimes I just don't understand anything!

There are times when I just don't understand the things going on in my life. I get frustrated with my own abilities - or lack thereof - to complete tasks, manage my emotions (or lack thereof), and understand my partner's reasoning. School has been absolutely frustrating because I just don't have the drive and motivation I once had. I understand that starting a new job, and starting a new school session are the worst possible combinations a person can endeavor. It's difficult enough to ride the learning curve of one new thing, much less two or three new things at a time. I will pass this semester, but just barely. That sucks - but doesn't freak me out. When things are particularly frustrating, I tend to turn off my emotions even more than already muted. For years I had to train myself to turn feelings into matter of fact realizations. Don't miss anyone too much - that's painful; don't want anything too much - that's frustrating; don't need anything too much - that's defeating. So, years of practice has made me pretty flat, and that's hard for Eve who can be quite histrionic when emotions are involved. Finally, I am having much difficulty understanding Eve's need to reach out to people from her past and bring them into the fold of all things Tate-Andersen. Darren wanted to talk to Eve so, of course, she reaches out and in the end finds out that he hasn't changed at all. Once she didn't invite him here to stay (when he was whining about having nowhere to go), and she didn't jump to provide him a solution to his problems...she realized he was only after her help. He hasn't called her since. Eve communicates with Lacey on Facebook - which doesn't really bother me except to say that if Lacey hasn't written in months...why would you write to find out if that person is fine? Once all the pleasantries, apologies, and finding out that one another are fine happens it seems to me that's that. Now, the most recent reaching into the past is Eve's initiation of contact with Haley. The one and only person who I will not tolerate. Eve cannot see how her communication with these people would hurt me. Furthermore, the fact that I didn't tell her I was hurt by this totally and completely surprises her - she cannot read my mind ya know. I figure if someone has gone all these years without needing and wanting to know what's going on in Eve's life...then chances are they are just fine...so that leads me to wonder if it's Eve who isn't 'just fine'. She seldom calls her friends who are really her friends. She seldom calls the people who have never been a part of her bad past. She barely communicates with the people who love and adore her on a regular basis. I have to wonder if it's Eve's Leo side that makes her need to feel that people from her past know how well she is doing now. How happy, blessed, financially secure, blah, blah, blah...she is now. I am at a loss. I guess I just need advice from people who understand (or even don't understand) how I feel and why I would be upset by the current situation. Love Y'all!